I have a lot of stuff to unload tonight, so this may end up being rather lengthly. And whiny because I have been irritated with a lot of things lately. Yeah.
You know I used to write in this journal a lot. I would write with such a freedom and then that all changed. I am not sure why exactly I just know it has. I think it may be because I read so many other blogs now and I see such talent and then I come here and plunk on the keys and come up short in talent and humor and substance. I am seriously considering just reading and not journaling, but I think part of my problem lately could be that I have not been purging through my writing. That and I haven't been having enough sex.
Yeah, we'll let R1ck think that is it.
But, seriously I have been in such a state of personl funk lately. And I am going to see how many times I can use the word lately in an entry. It's been about 5 so far if you are that interested.
So, I started this PChef business and I am really enjoying it. Of course, I have only had one party, but I really enjoyed it. And I have three more cooking shows this month (all within two days of each other!) and another catalog show I am closing on the 30th. I already have two cooking shows and a catalog show booked for May. So that is great. But, I feel like a big, stupid, fat mess.
It probably does not help that I need a haircut and can't fit into any of my spring/summer clothes. Nor it is a self esteem booster that I am behind in the laundry and vacuuming and anything else domestic around here. I spent an hour last week unclogging and cleaning the vacuum to have the belt burn out the next day. And R1ck asked the kiddos for their dirty clothes on Monday and Tuesday night to have them say they do not have any, for me to ask them tonight and have three baskets overflowing with dirty clothes. Must have switched outfits A LOT today.
Then there is PaCT stuff that I have to do for the preschool. Must delegate things tomorrow. The fundraiser was a success, though. That will be finished when we have our reward party next week.
And then there is the VBS planning that was suppose to start two months ago. Need to plan the breakfast and training sessions. More delegation. Must get used to delegating.
Oh and I have millions of things to print out - invite labels, VBS invitations, VBS information flyers, and I am sure I am forgetting something.
Not to mention the middle school orientation next week and the pressure of getting C0dy interested in and accepted in the orchestra program so he does not have to attend the middle school closest to us. Not that I think he would have any of the same issues that J and D had there, but we would just rather him be in another school. And I am sure that we missed the transfer request deadline. Seems even when we didn't, we did. Or so they said. I just wish I had the conviction to homeschool.
Let's not forget the raising of teenagers and the frustration that comes with that responsibility. D is still sure she could move out on her own right. now. and fare better than she ever will here. She can't wait until she can move out. She says she is a slave and so much smarter and bigger than we will ever be. I wonder why she doesn't just leave. It is not like we have ever stood in her way or physically restrained her to where she couldn't leave. But, she is still here.
Must be the grace of God.
I have not even mentioned the scrapbooking small group I am involved in or the Bunk0 group I have this weekend along with a PChef party. And I am really overwhelmed with the Ch1ldren's Min1stries at our church. We have no one lined up to teach either class for May and R1ck and I have already taught the older kiddos for the last two months. I am starting to forget what our Past0r looks like.
Yeah, and for some reason my MIL thought it would be a good idea to ask me to join East3rn St@r.
Is it Friday yet?
Like that matters. The weekends don't stop around here, either.
Skip one?
The Mocking Ends..... - Friday, May. 05, 2006
I Want to be a Super Star-ter! - Wednesday, May. 03, 2006
A 'M' Meme (from Aishling) - Thursday, Apr. 27, 2006
A Bit Better..... - Sunday, Apr. 23, 2006
Rejection's All I Ever Wanted...... - Thursday, Apr. 20, 2006