I really need to be doing something like unpacking or organizing, but I have so much swimming around in my head that it feels like it is going to burst right off my shoulders and into a million little pieces.
Think dropping a watermelon off of a balcony. Yeah, it is not real pretty right now.
I guess I should just start typing and let the thoughts formulate into words and see where it all goes. Yeah, I guess I should.
Dev1n told R1ck who the father is. She said it is J0sh. Yes, you read that right. No, you did not switch to reading some sordid Ark@nsas based novel. No offense to any Ark1es that read this. Like they can read…..
Anyway, I am not sure I believe her at all. Dev1n is not know for her honesty and naming him comes after a horrific story about sneaking out of a friend’s house to attend a party with a boy and his of legal age sister where she got totally wasted and ended up back at her friends’ house with her clothes on inside out and such with no recollection of having intercourse, but she was sure that is how she got pregnant. When we started talking about contacting said boy and another boy she was interested in at the time she said she’d wait until we were out of T3xas and then tell us who the baby’s father is.
Then she said it was J0sh. We have had some very heated email correspondence about the whole thing. She insists it is J0sh. He insists there is no way that it is his, that he never had sex with Dev1n and that she came to him when she found out she was pregnant and told him that she was going to tell us the baby was his so she would not have to go through paternity testing. Dev1n denies all of that and insists that he is the father and that we will owe her a huge apology for making her go through an amnio just to find out that J0sh is indeed the father. She also asked for a chocolate candy bar.
Dev1n and R1ck’s X went to talk with a lady at an adoption agency last night and she said that Dev1n would not have to go through any paternity testing to be able to proceed with an adoption. Dev1n seemed relieved until the X said we would require her to still have it done. The only thing she told the lady was that the baby’s father is under 18. At least that is all that the X heard. She talked with the lady alone and her case is sealed even to us.
Gotta love it.
Neither of our children can be truthful with us.
I just really am afraid that this is going to change my relationship with R1ck. I mean he really wanted to pound the boy that got his daughter pregnant and that boy could be his stepson!
I mean it is hard enough to deal with Dev1n being pregnant and now we may have to add the fact that the baby could be J0sh’s?! I am not one to question God often, but I am really stumped by this one. I am sure that this pregnancy will be a blessing for someone since Dev1n is planning on placing the baby for adoption, but I am not sure what part having J0sh be the father plays in all of this. I really don’t.
I find myself angry with Dev1n for not being truthful with us while at the same time being mad at J0sh because he may not be telling the truth. I mean what if they tests come back and J0sh is the father? Then what do I do beside beat him for not telling the truth in the beginning? And what about telling others about the baby’s father? How dysfunctional does our family have to get?
And I just really want to get this house in order! But, we had to skip having the yard sale because my mom, R1ck and my dad are all working Saturday. Cody was supposed to go to a scrimmage, but we decided to skip it. Not sure when his next practice is. Probably Monday.
At least the weather is nice. It has been so cool this week. I can definitely deal with the cooler temperatures. I do not miss the heat of Tex@s at all!
Well, it is about time I showered and got started on something today. We didn't do a thing yesterday and now I feel even further behind than before.
And we still haven't visited any churches in the area. That is starting to wear on me, too.
Sigh.
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Ouch..... - Friday, Aug. 18, 2006
Yesterday Was my Birthday.... - Thursday, Aug. 17, 2006
Kitchen Clutter....BE GONE! - Tuesday, Aug. 15, 2006