Why does it still bother me when I see the name of a diarist that dropped me from their buddy list on another sites' comments or notes? I do not know why it bothers me, but it really does.
I do not like being disliked. I think I would have handled her rejection better if she wrote me a note and told me why I was being dropped from her list. Yeah, I am sure that would helped.
Gah.
Anyway, I received an email today from someone I so desperately wanted to be closer friends with in Tex@s. We met in church and joined her and her husband's life group. I felt immediately connected to her since she was also a stepmom to a teen girl searching for herself. She is thin and beautiful and lives in a million dollar home - such an opposite from my fat, worn out look schelping around in my parents' house pretending we'll move out when things are financially better for us.
Gah.
But, even still with our differences, she was so down to earth and funny and likable. And she loves to scrapbook and there was just so many ways we connected.
Until life group stopped and they stopped coming to church. Rumor had it that they were looking for a new church and she seemed to be getting closer to someone that made me feel a bit uncomfortable in my own skin. She didn't mean to; she just did and now she was the close friend that I longed to be.
She started coming back to church right before we left. We found out that their teen girl was going through a lot of the same stuff as Devin and they were hurting. But, we were leaving and getting invloved didn't seem right.
Just the other day I mourned the fact that we never got to reconnect, sure that we could have been faster friends this time. Sad that it was too late.
Then she emailed me today. We are planning some phone time this week.
Her first line in her email said..... "I was wondering if you might need a friend right now to talk with--I sure could use one". I am not sure when I stopped crying.....
How good is God?
Yeah, He's THAT good and more.....
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